Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Nature and Love Provides


I have cooked myself many meals, sewn myself clothes and a quilt for my bed. I have built myself a bed and a house to put it in. Now I am mending my broken legs, making bone for myself. I can't believe I am not in casts. This leg in 7 pieces with so many holes cut into it, I can handle it freely and I am standing to put my weight on it and walking a few steps at a time. I can push against an elastic band and feel the muscle in the back of leg that was shredded a bit by the bone shards operating more or less as it should. The ripped muscle in my thighs has processed the huge bruise and repair the trauma there too, and I can put pressure on it. With my socks to cover the bandage wrapping, when I am relaxed and free from pain, I wouldn't even know they are broken by look or feel.

When there is pain it is so varied, I understand now the expression: a symphony of pain. Sometimes it is a burning ache, or shooting pains radiating and throbbing up through my body. I am very thankful that I am experienced at sitting completely still in dynamic tension, because the episodes of pain cause a great deal of tension that I need to manage.

I have been taking symphytum-officinale, in homeopathic pellet form, the common name being comphrey, and knit-bone. I used to grow comphrey in my garden!

My friend brought me a 2 oz vile of homemade poppy oil and comphrey salve. In the first weeks this oil took the pain away, completely localized low dose therapy. I used it perhaps once a day when an episode of pain was upon me, usually after exercising.

My dear friend Renee in Gibsons sent me some of the healing massage oil she makes. It is beautiful and has amazing healing properties. The Arnica and St. John's Wort is mixed with such beautiful floral oils, and almost sends me into a swoon as it eases away the pain. She just got her business website up online. When it says that the products are all made with prayers infused by women on the BC coast, it is true. I was there this past summer when several women of many different backgrounds came from afar to meet with her and infuse her ingredients in days of prayer and love. < 3
https://www.flowersofguadalupe.com/

I am also thankful for yoga and feldenkrais practice I have spent so long conditioning myself to. I need to spend more time in mediation to help balance my emotions.